Sometimes I wonder why

Sometimes I wonder why
What has a hold on me here?
And why can't it let me pass it by?
It's not like there is something here

I have long since been an outsider
With no inkling as to why
I don't know why I'm here anymore
So, sometimes I wonder why?

There is nothing here for me
Not a single tie
Nothing here to be
Just to sit here and die

Sometimes I wonder why?
That's not what I want
This isn't where I want to die
To die here, I can't

There is too much pain for me here
I can't take it much longer
I don't want the pain that is given to me here
I don't want it any longer.

Sometimes I wonder why
What keeps me?
There is so much hurt, really
I can't be me

This is where I go
To sleep, to eat
I don't want to be here, though.
I want to leave, to be the one who beats.

I don't want to hurt anymore
I don't want to be beaten down
I want so much more
Than to be looking down

I want to be on top
I want to win
I won't want to stop
If I ever get the chance to win

But sometimes I wonder why
Why am I still here?
It feels like I can't get by
At least when I am here.

I think it's soon time to say good-bye
To get out of here
So I don't have to wonder why
And no longer be here


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